New thoughts...

After watching 下一站,幸福 and know more about Van Ness's background as a christian. Something came to me. If he could become so faithful with God when he was that sucessful, why am i waiting?? Why do i tell God, oh wait until my life is great and i'll follow You more and be more faithful? Because no matter how much success i gain, it means nothing. The riches of this world means nothing in God's eyes.

God, I want to be faithful now. Take my life. Take me. I don't want to make my own plans anymore. I want to do whatever you want me to do. I don't know what it is now, but I know it will be much much better than what I have planned for myself. For You will never give Your child anything that is not good. I want to be more faithful. Obey You more. Tell me, teach me, guide me, love me, and most of all be with me always, God.

I also realize one thing that 我一直堅實的. I kept saying my husband must be white. Ha ha ha, i know this is really funny. I also said, I don't like asian guys because they are not that cute and so on. But what i realize is, I truly don't think it matters anymore. I mean it is great to have a preference, but what makes the guy more attractive is if he loves God or not. A God fearing man is more attractive than a cute white guy. Because one's look will change over time, yet a man who truly loves God and follow God will be a man worth knowing.

I'm not sure if all this make any sense, but to me it does.

So here i am going to list the qualities that my future husband must have, but exclude how he will look because I believe it will change over time and over understanding each other. I am going to just list the qualities that will not change even if i turn blind.
1. He must be a God fearing man
2. He must love God more than me love anything else in this world
3. He must be full of integrity
4. He must be loyal
5. He must love his family
6. He must love kids
7. He must have a loving family who love and worship the Almighty God
8. He must be faithful, trustworthy, and caring
9. He must have a great sense of humor and understand my sense of humor
10. He must be compassionate and charismatic
11. He must know how to forgive
12. He must get along with my friends and family
13. He must have the same spiritual goals and path as me, but be more spiritually stronger than me

it feels like there are so much more, but i cannot think of it right now. I will revise and add-on if there is more. but these so far is a must. Looks... i believe God will give me a Godly man who HE believe is the right look and so on. I mean my Abba Father will 精精細選 a guy for His 寶貝女兒阿... so i dont have to be worry ^__^... BUT NO ONE IS BETTER THAN MY BRIDEGROOM JESUS CHRIST... MY ULTIMATE HUBBY!!!