battle after summer camp...

When one is at an all time high, it seems like nothing will bring one down, but after many experiences, i realize when we are so into the Lord and so crazy and on fire for Him, Satan would try to bring you down ASAP. i believe when one pass this stage, one would be even more on fire and crazy for God. So well, I am at this place right now. That a battle between the old me and the new me. The old me wants to go back to the way i was... lazy, ignorant, arrogant, prideful, and so on. BUT the new me wants to be the way God intended to create us. Dont judge others for God is the ultimate Judge. Dont be lazy for diligent people are better. Dont be prideful and arrogant and ignorant for that is how pharasees are and look how they did not understand the kindness and love of God. the new me is trying so hard to be more humble, more understanding, more like God. But old ways keeps coming back to me day after day i feel like i am turning back and day after day i feel i am pushing myself to change. Change is hard especially when one is changing for the good. And also the old me wants to go back to the old sins i have been stumbling on, but the new me wants to respect and honor God and fear the Lord. The new me is trying so hard to fight a fight that it is hoping to win. sorry to blabbling on. maybe im just tired lolz.. night