MOVING in...

For the last several days, I was at LTC. I learned a lot and reconnected so much. I knew when I came back from LTC, I would start facing persecutions because after persecution there is promotion... growth and so on. But I wasn't expecting the persecution to come right away. It came... right when I sat in the car my bro driving to take me home from church. It is one thing to see the financial problem of others and say everything will be alright and God will provide. It is another when the financial problem is your family's. My bro said my family financial problem is really really big... bigger than what we expected and he just told me to prepare for major changes in 2008. My heart aches, yet with my mouth I keep proclaiming God will provide. Proclaiming with my mouth, yet my heart was heavy. When Alice went to my room to sleep for a while, I was talking to Steven about everything. Then I broke down to tears because of everything. (not about steven.. ha ha) I hanged up. Tears wouldn't stop flowing down my cheeks. I cried and cried. Just as much as I had in summer camp. It has been at least 4 months since I cried like that. Then I realize how Joshua felt. I know God will be with me and He will provide and He will protect me. But my heart felt so scared. I was terrified. I cried out to God. And cried. I was so afraid of the coming year. I felt all the fears and I can just feel and see the persecutions coming ahead. Personally, financially, spiritually, and all. I was also scared of the worst outcome which is saling mayflower house and parents moving back to Taiwan. I couldn't bare that pain and the hurt of being so apart from my mom. Cried for I think about a hour or a little more. I read the Bible at that time too. The things that came to me is what God told Joshua "Take courage, don't be terried, I will be with you" My heart was just like Joshua's. I was terrified even though I know God will be with me. But now... thinking back after a day. I am giving my all to God... and just focus on Him. He will be my guide through my life and especially in 2008. I never was this scared of a coming year... but this year I know is different. I believe at the end of 2008, I will stand on stage testified for God about all the mircles He has done in my life in 2008 and I will be a living testimony for God. So instead of fearing, I need to move in. Move into 2008. Just let it come... God will be protecting and be there for me... no more fear... Be stront and take hear and wait for the Lord.
Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank You for everything. Pour down Your blessing to everyone. And just bless next year. Let us loose nobody on the battle field. Let us be strong. Next year might be the toughest year in my life and also in other's life. But WE WILL PRAISE YOU NAME and GLORIFY YOU! Hallelujah...
AMEN

GUYS, LET US MOVE IN TO 2008!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!